AHHHHH

I feel like screaming...I did okay yesterday, but I think I would do alot better without all the junk food in the pantry. I did some Hot Tamales though. I bought a workout DVD and it kicked my ass. Supposedly you are to do it for 30 days straight and you will lose up to 20lbs. I will continue to do this and we'll see. David told me I felt smaller...I think he was just trying to butter me up. I have lost one pound, just 39 more to go!! I am having a lean cuisine for lunch and I'll make some lean spaghetti tonight!! We'll see how I do. Until tomorrow...GOOD LUCK!!

This Purpose...

So I have come to the realization that its time, the time to work on improving myself. An improvement of my body and mind so that I can hopefully be happy with myself and gain a sense of accomplishment. I plan to blog about this journey so that I may see my progression as well as my faults and weaknesses. My husband and I have a 9 month old son. While I was pregnant I used as an excuse to eat. I gained more than I should have. I love my family and I want to be around. I feel I need to lose weight and be healthier. I have never been this size. Its depressing knowing that I cannot bare to look at myself in the mirror. I have a total of 3 pictures of my son and I together. There are plenty taken, but I see myself and I delete them. I know later on I will regret not having any...this break my heart.I am the Matron of Honor in an upcoming wedding and I want to look and feel my best. So the time has come for a new me!!!